Story from Jack

Although my differences in this regard did not really appear until I was a teenager that is not to say I wasn’t always different.
I was born in 2003 to a middle-class loving family.

When I started school I often had difficulty socializing, was hyperactive, and had difficulty concentrating. As a result, when I was 9 years old I was diagnosed with Asperger syndrome and ADHD. I developed a reputation as a source of humour and it took me a while to realize I was being used by my peers.

When I became a teenager my dark antisocial traits began to appear as since I was 14. I have had these sadistic fantasies to rape and murder women and to become a serial killer. I rather enjoyed these thoughts and felt no empathy towards my supposed victim. These thoughts led to me committing several weapons offenses although I never carried out any attacks. I was always prone to intense fits of frustration and hostility.

As for my social life I never had any friends or relationships and was distant from my parents and sister and sincerely told others I would be fine if my family was murdered.

Back to my story as impulsive and reckless as I have always been. I revealed my fantasies to someone else who informed School when I was 16. I was subsequently diagnosed with conduct disorder. For the last two years, I have undergone therapy to manage my thoughts and have completed my a levels. I am about to study criminology at university so I can utilize my interest for the good so I don’t get in trouble.

I can’t change the fact that I am devoid of empathy, or feelings for others but I can always control my actions and can get what I want without breaking the law.

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